For almost three years I seem to have had an almost OCD-like fixation on poop. I forget why, but if I didn't go every day I would be extremely upset about that fact. So I strained to go every day.
When I realized this was bad for me, I only went when it ABSOLUTELY had to come out! But I had almost constant discomfort like I needed to go, and discovered if I sat down and relaxed it would come out, even though I didn't feel like I had to go asap.
After that, whenever I "thought" I had to go, I would try, usually straining for half an hour or more. The problem was that the poo would snake halfway out, then kind of stop, half hanging; and the more I pushed, the more came out, so I never know when to stop!
I take Metamucil and lots of fiber now, and sometimes it works wonderfully, delivering daily solid poos; but others are extremely loose.
But what started as a strange lump is now this: I can physically see intestines or whatever (just a big bulge) protruding from my anus when I push the poop out. I doubt this is good for me. Sometimes after going poop my anus remains inside out, and if I suck in I can feel it flip back to normal.
Have I permanently damaged my system? Any advice? Thanks soooo much.